Week of Septermber 19th.

So I haven't been doing too badly, I have been going to the gym 3 days a week for an hour or more at a time. I haven't had regular soda in a while like 3 weeks and it isn't so bad but I haven't seen that tremondous weight loss I was envisioning. That sucks. I think I have lost a pound and a half which is ok because I think my fat rolls are getting smaller which is a definete improvement, as they are not hanging over my jeans!! I want to lose 25 lbs by the end of the year. I think I can do it. I haven't been eating crappy except for this morning I had a bronie for breakfast and yes I knew it was wrong. I am trying to stay away from beer, only have a couple on the weekends as opposed to 2-3 every night. I have been using a few different websites to track my calories and workouts. It makes me more aware of what I am putting into my body. The next step is to get rid of the diet soda out of my diet :)

The offical Day One entry

So, I think I did it today. I had a smoothie for breakfast, spiniach and orzo,steamed broccoli, roughly 2 ounces of chicken and a salad for lunch. I went to the gym for an hour today then had some nuggets ( I know, I know) a 20oz diet coke, 99 ounces of water then another 12 ounce can of diet coke. Half a grilled cheese sandwich (because I couldn't admit to my husband I went and got McNuggets, even though he brought home ice cream the shit head) and then a pint glass of ice water. I am not sure how great I did but at least it wasn't gummie bears and coke right?? Aside from the screaming headache I have I feel ok. I'm glad I at least got to the gym today. Oh and on top of everything this chick here has decided to give up smoking (again). I know, I do realize how bad it is for you, trust me I do. I just had a wee bit of a slip after two and a half years with out them, but I'll get back on track soon enough. I am trying to figure out what to do for dinner tomorrow. I was thinking either home made chicken parm or some spinach and cheese stuffed shells,garlic bread a salad and some steamed veggies. My kids LOVE steamed veggies. I am hoping that something comes of all this, you know it's gotten bad when your 5 year old comes over and asks if she can play with your play dough (i.e. my belly fat) Yeah, no need to tell me she's a sweet kid. Of course this is the same kid who told me she was glad I was fat because that's how God made me. Well God and I need to have a bit of a talk then. I think I will give up my glorious big boobs if I can just be a size 12 again. I swear I would in an instant. Uh-oh did you hear that?? I think my husband just had an attack of some sort at the thought of me losing my boobs. Oh well, this headache is kicking me arse and I need to go shower the gym stank off me, so off I go! Nighty Night

August 30th 2011

I woke up this morning and began with the usual routine, take a shower, do the kids lunches and sippy's try to convince them that if they didn't get out of bed things would not go well for them, you know the usual. As I searched the house looking for a pile of laundry that may resemble mine, (because of course my maid is on strike still, we are going on 33 years here) I pulled out a pair of jeans that I knew I would have to grab the belt for, in order to keep them up only to discover that sadly, I no longer needed the belt. What was worse, is I could not find a shirt loose enough to cover the muffin top appropriately. Now I am not talking about a good muffin here, NO I am talking about a ham and cottage cheese muffin or something gross like that. As it happens, I am loath to really call myself fat, but it comes as no surprise to me that I am a wee bit more then slightly over weight. I have beat myself up for some time over my weight and the fact that I am so weak minded in somethings that I have a hard time sticking with them. I have tried weight watchers, NurtiSystem (tasted like dog food to me) Atkins,South Beach you get the point. Some of them just required a lot of restricted eating and with a husband and 3 kids, my life doesn't allow for that. And today as I sat eating my breakfast of gummie bears and a 20 oz coke, I realized that some thing has to give. I need to be able to do this. I want to be at LEAST 25lbs lighter by Christmas, I have free access to the gym at school so why not? I mean if I keep a food & exercise journal, then maybe I can get this thing under control. Being well over 200lbs is not cute and while I appreciate my husband and friends telling me I am beautiful, they have obviously not been paying attention to the times I have taken my clothes in the dark, it is not pretty. So here we go, enough with people telling me I'm tall and carry my weight well. Enough with the beer several nights a week and enough with the gummie bear and coke breakfasts. Here is to the beginning of what is hopefully my final weight loss journey!!