August 30th 2011

I woke up this morning and began with the usual routine, take a shower, do the kids lunches and sippy's try to convince them that if they didn't get out of bed things would not go well for them, you know the usual. As I searched the house looking for a pile of laundry that may resemble mine, (because of course my maid is on strike still, we are going on 33 years here) I pulled out a pair of jeans that I knew I would have to grab the belt for, in order to keep them up only to discover that sadly, I no longer needed the belt. What was worse, is I could not find a shirt loose enough to cover the muffin top appropriately. Now I am not talking about a good muffin here, NO I am talking about a ham and cottage cheese muffin or something gross like that. As it happens, I am loath to really call myself fat, but it comes as no surprise to me that I am a wee bit more then slightly over weight. I have beat myself up for some time over my weight and the fact that I am so weak minded in somethings that I have a hard time sticking with them. I have tried weight watchers, NurtiSystem (tasted like dog food to me) Atkins,South Beach you get the point. Some of them just required a lot of restricted eating and with a husband and 3 kids, my life doesn't allow for that. And today as I sat eating my breakfast of gummie bears and a 20 oz coke, I realized that some thing has to give. I need to be able to do this. I want to be at LEAST 25lbs lighter by Christmas, I have free access to the gym at school so why not? I mean if I keep a food & exercise journal, then maybe I can get this thing under control. Being well over 200lbs is not cute and while I appreciate my husband and friends telling me I am beautiful, they have obviously not been paying attention to the times I have taken my clothes in the dark, it is not pretty. So here we go, enough with people telling me I'm tall and carry my weight well. Enough with the beer several nights a week and enough with the gummie bear and coke breakfasts. Here is to the beginning of what is hopefully my final weight loss journey!!